Trick or Treat

This past week has been packed with Halloween fun!  monday night was Brady's Cub Scout Halloween party that the whole family went to.  All the kids got to do a parade around the gym and they played games and had a really fun time!





















Then we had the pumkin lighting on Friday so the boys picked out a pumpkin and carved it with daddy

 

 

 

Tonight we went Trick or treating with our Friends Dustin and Elizabeth and their children.  They live in Haverhill and had trick or treating tonight.  The kids had a blast and cant wait for our town Trick or treat.  We just hope we have one seeing as they are predicting a pretty nasty storm this week

 

It's Fall!

The time has come for apple picking and hay rides!  This past weekend we went on our first apple picking excursion of the season.  It was perfect weather kind of cool and crisp.  We had a fabulous time.  It is great to be able to go with Brian's parents and sister and grandmother.  It was a wonderful family day!

 

double fisting it!

gotta love apples

rrrrrrr pirate brady and his apple

mmmmmmm apple cider donuts

Family portrait time

special Cameron and babcia hugs!

Dziadziu helping out

Babcia, Dziadziu and the grand kids

1st day of TLC preschool

Cameron has gone to pre school at Rainbow preschool for the past two years, although he could have gone to kindergarten this year he would have only made the cut off for his class by 5 days so we decided to have him do one more year of pre school.  This year we enrolled him in the integrated pre school at pollard school. so he is in the school that he will be going to next year and he goes to school at 12:40 and then takes the bus home with Brady.  He has been doing AWSOME!  he never had any anxiety or anything, he went off to school with a smile and came home with a smile!  I am so proud of him!

Cameron's new Mario Back pack

always time for a picture with his little brother

Coming off the big bus!

1st day of First grade!

It is so hard for me to believe that on September 4th I sent my baby, my first born off to first grade.  I remember working at pollard school being pregnant with Brady and thinking it's going to be a long time before he is here at school.  Well I feel like I blinked and he is now going there.  Brady was so excited and nervous but did well!   I love hearing all about his days, I hope it continues that he wants to talk to me about school.

Too long

So it's been about 6 months since I last posted.  With it being so easy to upload pictures to face book I have kind of gotten out of posting to the blog but I do enjoy being able to go back and read about our trips and special events.  Lots has happened in the past 6 months.  Our biggest news is that we are expecting baby #4. I am 14 weeks and Due the first week in March.  Here are a few high lights of our summer and I will do my best to keep this updated!

          

Liam turned 2

 

We went to Santa's village

Had so much fun!

Storyland!

Clark's trading post

karate Tournament

This weekend the boys and I all competed in the Karate schools tournament.  Cameron and I although we worked very hard did not place, but Brady came in 3rd in Forms for his phase.  He blew me away!  I have never seen Brady perform as well as he did when they called his name to come up infront of the judges.  He was confident, said the script he was supposed to say stepped back did his form and turned around to get his scores, which were all 7 and 8's.  The highest score you can recieve was a 9.  It was a goood experience for all of us.  Although Cameron was disappointed he was still a good sport and congratulated his big brother.  It was a big accomplishment for me to do this.  If 5 years ago someone would have told me that I would be competing in a karate tournament at 31 years old I never would have believed them.  Karate has done so much for me but most of all it has given me back some of the confidence in myself that I feel I had lost along the way.

First visit from the tooth fairy

Brady hit a big milestone yesterday.  He lost his first tooth!!!  It seems like just yesterday we were so excited that he got his first tooth.  He was very excited to put his tooth in his tooth fairy box and was even more excited to find $5.00 the next morning.  When we were talking about what he could do with the money, I suggested saving it for our next trip to Disney.  All on his own Brady said he was raising money for the Relay for life and was going to put it toward that!  WOW I am a very PROUD mommy.  maybe all my talk about giving back is actually getting through!!  Congrats to my big boy!!  We love you!!!

gone but never forgotten

It has taken me a little while to be able to write this, but I decided that it may actually help me heal to write it all out.

November 13th 2011, We got that double line on the home pregnancy test that we had been waiting for.  Brian and I had decided that we would like to have one more child to complete our family.  The timing had worked out great we were goin gto be due on July 22, 2012.  That was great because Brian isn't too busy with work during the summer and I have less kids during the summer for daycare.  We told everyone the news on Thanksgiving day.  We were so thankful!! We had even decided to tell the boys.  We never thought that we would miscarry.  The boys were so excited.  Brady especially!  It warmed my heart to see how welcoming my children were going to be to their new brother or sister.  We got through the holidays and had our first ultrasound scheduled for Decemeber 29th.  THat day we had Brian's parent's watch the boys and we went for the ultrasound.  After the tech took us in and started the ultrasound I knew right away that I was not seeing a heartbeat.  I didn't say anything at first cause I didn't want to come off as one of the know it all moms.  She decided to change over to an internal ultrasound saying that I wasn't too far along and she needed to see some things better.  I Still had hope at this point, She switched over to the internal ultrasound and I knew as soon as I saw the screen that there was still no heartbeat. I finally asked the tech if we should be able to see the heartbeat. She said yes and I imediatley started to cry.  I asked how big the baby was measuring and she said 8 weeks 6 days.  according to the doctors calculations I shoul dhave been 10 weeks 4 days.  We went up to my doctors office where we discussed my options.  at that point I said I wanted to let it happen naturally but I asked if I decided to have a D&C if I could have one more ultrasound just to be 100% sure.  I waited about 5 days and nothing happened on its own.  It was absolute torture.  to know you are walking around with your dead baby inside of you does something to you.  I also had a tiny little piece of hope that they were wrong, that I was going to go back for an ultrasound and find a healthy baby.  January 5th I went in for my last ultrasound.  my mom came with me and held my hand through the whole the thing.  They confirmed my worst nightmare.  there was still no heartbeat and the baby was still measuring at 8weeks 6 days.  I scheduled the D&C for the next day, but before I left the ultrasound I did manage to get a picture.  Jan. 6 2012 I said one last goodbye to my baby.  never knowing if it was a boy or a girl I think was one of the hardest things for me.  I know lots of people go through this.  I was overwhelmed by the amount of people who reached out to me and told me their story.  I'm moving forward.  This is something I will never forget.  I will always wonder what this child would have been like, who it would have looked like, how the boys would have interacted with a new baby.  how it would have changed our family dynamics. and of course I have gone down the why? road a couple times but have decided that why this happened I will probably never know.  But I know that as a family this is something that we will get through together.